In Hosea 12, there is mention of Jacob wrestling with God. Hosea used Jacob to illustrate the need for God's people to simply trust God. In Ex 32 Jacob is plagued with fear over his reunion with Esau. He encounters an angel and when he realizes who he is wrestling with, he goes all in. He changes his prayer from "What do I do about Esau's anger?" to "How can I receive a blessing from God?". God's blessings often come in the form of pain. I empathize with Jacob and admire his tenacity. Somewhere in the middle of the night his focus shifted from his problem to God's plan for his life. I have a problem in my life that I have no idea how to fix. It is a source of constant disappointment and hurt. Every single time I seek counsel, I leave renewed. And every single time, nothing works. I feel like Jacob. There is no earthly answer for my troubles and I am wrestling with God. My prayers are very simple, "God...help?" "God...that one really hurt" "God...is there hope?". Each time I pray, I don't get an answer. Just a reminder of how great God is. A verse will come to mind about His sovereignty or the perfect song about His glory will play. My problem has not gone away. In fact, most days, I think its getting worse. But my God, is always good. And as much as I would like to wrap this up with a happy ending, I don't have one at the moment. What I do have, is future grace. What I do have is future hope. What I do have, is a God that is walking IN the fire with me. And I have a feeling, I will be here, until He has shown me how he will bless me through this.